hilitehead

Because I’m nearing the end of my high school career, a lot of people have asked me what I want to be when I ‘grow up’. Before, my answer was along the lines of lawyer, architect, or doctor, an actual occupation. After studying a little bit of law, and physics, and biology, I realized I really didn’t want to be the things that I thought I did. I was upset and flustered with myself, not knowing what I wanted to be, not being able to plan for what was in store for my future. I had never admitted it before, but soon I realized that the answer to the question was actually, “I have no idea what I want to be.” I always had the impression that I needed to know exactly what my specific destination was, so I won’t get lost. What I learned after following many misguided destinations is that there is ultimately only one: betterment.
All of the other choices I had for my life goals were so materialistic and money oriented. I wasn’t thinking realistically about just how much time would be wasted on something I didn’t love if I were to go into the careers I had planned to pursue. I had only considered those possible careers for one reason: money. Obviously money is an important aspect of being a functional member of society, but it really shouldn’t be the ultimate motive of any choice a person makes. I don’t know exactly what it was that changed my mind, but I soon lost interest in those practical career paths. After a lot of thinking about my future, what I soon realized is that the most important motivation for any choice that I make about my life is something that will help me become a good person who positively impacts the lives of many. I want to be a person who does good while at the same time doing what she loves; bettering the world and in turn bettering herself. I’m still at a loss as to what exactly that path will look like, but because I know what my general goal is, I’m a lot less unsure about what to do with myself, and I’m a lot more certain about how committed I am.