What do you do when you realize your past actions have been wrong? can you turn the hands of time and change what you seek…I feel quite helpless for the position I have placed you in, I wish I can change my wrongdoing, if only for the matrix and month of December. Am I simply to bear the guilt and shame and move on with an unkempt wound or put the past behind and tend to it as a lesson learned. No more downs from now. Knowing you have disappointed is the hardest to live with.
hilitehead 
elaborate?